Time for some Reflections
Music to listen to: Where I End and You Begin by Radiohead
Its been another long spell since I've written on Pourtout Pancakes. Its strange that when I was my most active personally and professionally, having a full-time job, going to graduate school at night, dating, etc. I wrote on the Blong consistently. Now, even when not having full-time work, I'm spuratic with my posts.
There are two main reasons. First, I've been focusing on The Sports Inquirer. Second, I didn't want to write about the same stuff each week. A normal post would be about me applying for jobs, going on an interview, two if I'm lucky, not even getting a call back, being lonely in Georgia because while I love my family and enjoy my time with them, I'm a sports professional and should be working at a game in some form. How it kills me to watch sports on television, especially college contests involving Belmont and Vandy and missing the heck out of Nashville. How I'm in the worst financial state I've even been in my life and I'm 29. How I've finally reached the point where I want to start a family and struggling with my dating life.
No one wants to read about those things consistently on a Blog.
However, I've learned that despite this being the roughest patch of my professional life, I have to improve my grind. If I want to reach my professional goals, I have to dedicate completly to my work. Every moment should be dedicated to something that helps grow my brand.
That means writing more posts and not watching reality television. The more time I commit to writing will make me a better writer for my eventual sports business magazine.
It means doing a physical workout instead of searching odd topics on Google. This will not only keep me healthy and increase my lifetime, it will make me look better when I'm on television providing my analysis of said sports issues.
I see people like Darren Rovell, Peter King, Jay Glazer, Jason Whitlock and numerous others and their work ethic is much better than mines and that disturbs me because I can be at their level, maybe even better but I've been wasting my time feeling bad about the cards I've been dealt.
I was released from a job that I really, really liked. Didn't deserve to be let go in my opinion but that's not going to be the first time this has happened or will happen. I have to move on.
I had to leave Nashville, which bummed me out but I didn't want to leave the first time. I didn't want to leave Charleston when I lived there. When I eventually move out away from where I'm currently at, Kennesaw, Ga. I'll be sad to leave here also. I'm probably not going to live in Nashville again, loved my time there, miss my friends there, but I have to move on.
I'm not going to start that family I'm interested in having for a few years. I want to achieve things that are going to take several years to gain. There's no need to have a mental scoreboard comparing how many of my friends have reached the benchmarks of top job, marriage and children in comparison to myself. Not only does this waste time but everyone's journey is different so let them live their lives.
So the final message of this post for myself is to improve my work ethic and try to enjoy this journey of life.
